Fixed

copyright – Rochelle Wisoff-Fields

copyright – Rochelle Wisoff-Fields

FIXED

“It’s alright,” momma said. “We’ll have you fixed, sweetie.”

They excised parts of me as if they were tumors… upgraded me as if I were a machine.

They added some; they removed some.

But somehow managed to leave behind the cancer of self-doubt.

I learned to live with the stranger in the mirror.

Because no one ever made fun of her face.

Twenty-five years later, I teach my daughter something that I wish my momma had taught me instead.

“You’re beautiful, sweetie. Just the way you are… If someone tells you otherwise, you punch them right in the nose job.”

© 2013 K.Z. Morano

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41 thoughts on “Fixed

  1. “The cancer of self-doubt” and “the nose job” were perfect! I’m so glad her daughter would know that what’s inside it the more important, (although getting contacts made a big difference to me, at least for a time!) 🙂

    janet

  2. Hi KZ,
    You and Mr. Rogers are really on the same page, the one about unconditional love and accepting someone for just who he or she is. And that final line packs a punch, literally and figuratively. Oh, and I meant to tell you I read your “about KZ” bio and thought it was one of the best ones ever. Ron

  3. Very well told. I wonder about that, the cancer of self-doubt? What can it be like, to change the face you were born with because it did not measure up to Western Standards of Beauty? I don’t mean actual disfigurement, but just a large aquiline nose, instead of the pert little turned up things that so many end up with. I come from LA, where everyone different gets a nose job, I’m Jewish, but lucked out with a perfect nose by accident of birth. Turns out my mother’s nose must have been a recessive quality, for no one got it, but what if we had, would we have begged for surgery?

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