Nineteen years you had me,
Your little accident baby.
Thank you, mama,
For not getting rid of me.
How beautiful you were
And how people would compare…
And how it broke my heart
That they could tell us apart.
I wish I could’ve saved you
From the devil, mama.
But I was afraid, too
And how you loved him, mama…
You could’ve walked away
I would’ve come with you, mama.
Still, you chose to stay.
You should’ve broken free
Instead, you broke down.
And I despised your weakness,
Blamed you for your mental illness.
I thought, if you loved me
You would’ve been stronger
And not make me grow up
So much faster.
I needed you, mama,
When I was growing up.
Where were you, mama?
Why did you just stop
Being my mother?
He’s gone now, mama.
But you’re not any better…
And it feels strange
For you to call me your daughter.
We don’t hug, we don’t kiss.
But there are times that I miss
How you taught me how to recite
poetry in the bath
As you lathered my back
After homework and math,
And the glass of warm milk
Before I hit the sack.
I know now, mama
It was never your fault…
You were like me,
Forced to grow up.
In your own way, you were strong.
After all, you’re still here…
Cheated death just to be near.
Look at me, mama.
I grew up pretty well.
It’s okay, mother…
We did a pretty good job
Raising each other.
Your daughter,
KZ
I love this poem! So honest, so real.
thanks… i really am giving this to my mom. broke my heart as i wrote it.. memories came flooding back. thanks^^
I’m glad for you, and for your mom, that you will share it with her. I hope it brings some healing for you. You have much courage. It is better to live the truth no matter what.
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KZ,
This was so poignantly beautiful. I pray the Lord touches your mom’s heart as you share it with her, and that He uses it to draw you both closer together. Many blessings to you!
Love,
Cheryl
thanks, Cheryl 🙂
Well..you’d better make me chuckle in the next post m’dear….to bring me back up… beautiful post.
thanks, i’ll try… 🙂
Sometimes we forget that our mothers are little girls too.
yes we do… 🙂 thanks for reading and commenting
This is so brutally honest and reveals an amazingly beautiful and strong young woman. Not only beautiful on the outside but equally beautiful on the inside.
z
thanks so much, z ^^
well written. yes, you are right. you grew up pretty well. well done.
thank you 🙂
This is lovely and honest. It is hard when the roles get reversed. However, through your words I believe you have handled it well. Thank you for visiting me today. ~Lynda
“…sometimes i wish we could just claw each others’ eyes out and call it a day.” A rare truism is spoken. You share so openly! I like it. 🙂
thank you very much, Lynda ^^
Very beautiful poem by such young, lovely, gentle yet strong girl. Two thumbs up for you dear Kz.
thank you so much 🙂
Wow. This was so deep and honest. I pray that when you give it to your mom it opens a door of opportunity for you both. Thanks for sharing your heart with us, and I appreciate you visiting my blog!
thank you too for reading and commenting 🙂
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beautiful and touching…
thanks so much.. 🙂
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Very strong writing. I hope you can share this with her and that she can accept it.
thank you 🙂
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Came from Alison’s site. Enjoyed the poem a lot. Thank you. Paulette
thanks for dropping by 🙂
Reblogged this on The Eclectic Eccentric and commented:
there’s a reason why i’m reblogging this old post from 2012. this was a letter for my mother. my mom is currently in the hospital. she suffered from a cerebrovascular accident. this is the second stroke. if you pray, please include her in your prayers. thank you.
I will KZ…Sorry to hear that…May be it was hard, but still she is your mother…I will pray..
thanks. i appreciate it.